It was a mixed feelings day....I am still down with severe skin rashes and the anti allergic leave me dead and dull but thankfully I never fail to put alarm to wake up and be ready and alert to pick kabir on time.Today I was very hyper because the famous laboratory Religare had misplaced kabir's blood sample for allergy test and iI hadn't warned him enough that he will have to give his blood sample again...morning was too rush rush.
When I went to pick him I told him that we have to go the hospital again to give blood sample.His face was drawn,he stiffened ,ready to break in to tears...and with just one question"why do I have to get one prick again? "I was so helpless that I wished I could strangulate the lab people but what to do...here I was taking him against his wish and he obliged just with one sentence that test will help him in knowing now what all he can eat...I hit myself inwards as I mumbled to myself..or what he can't eat...When usually kids of his age don't want to look at chapati n sabji ,all he wants is simple chapati everyday and I can't give him that also because of his food allergies.I am just keeping my fingers crossed that at least his wheat and tomato allergy goes away so that he can eat normal meals at least.
we reached there and he cooperated till the time he got that painful prick...He was crying his heart out and so was me...It always happens and the hospital staff knows it so well that they might be ready with tissues every time provided I allow them to console both of us.But, no, its a very private emotion for both of us.We just wipe each others tears ..then I have a coffee and he has a tub of popcorn and all pain is forgotten soon.Then we went to badi mummy's place.She is my masi as well as tai.so I am very close to her.She is 73 and she has recurrent episodes of amnesia.But she loves me so much that she never fails to recognize me and kabir.Her family envies us too but who cares I go there to meet her.Anyway, as it happened that she was having her afternon siesta...and her care taker didnt tell her tat I had come.but she must have felt my presence as she called out to me in her sleep and my, my was she happy to see me!!!....she was ecstatic..and we spent some good one hour with her..
Then we went to meet a friend.She was sad and the reason she was sad was personal so cant discuss it here but I did go back to the same time 8 years ago when I had faced the same situation and it had nearly destroyed me.I really wished of only I could take away her pain .She is a fighter she will survive it all but why God has to give pain to people who don't even hurt anyone..I kept thinking all the way back home.After reaching back we attended the last day's aarti and offered prayers and I made last announcement for sunday's autism awareness session.Few people did respond to registration and I decided against my plan that I will do the session even if just 5 people turned up..So the count down begins now...for sunday.
Then it was time for result declaration for drawing competition.I was nervous...some how knowing that this time kabir didn't have much chance as I glanced at prize winning entries....But at heart I was angry how can society group kids from 5 to ten years in the same group?Wasn't it unfair..a 6 year old child competing against 6 ten year old children .Anyhow I was relieved to notice that kabir wasn't upset or even affected. He just checked on all drawings,it was 8.30 pm already, so he just said that he wanted to go home and sleep.I was relieved that he didn't realize that he had not won...he just wanted to sleep.I was also very tired.It had been a long long day for both of us.while kabir relaxed in front of t.v I cooked,checked my mail n chatted with a good friend.It was all sufficient to relax me.Kabir is sleeping and I am also going to draw the curtains now.Gudnite.
When I went to pick him I told him that we have to go the hospital again to give blood sample.His face was drawn,he stiffened ,ready to break in to tears...and with just one question"why do I have to get one prick again? "I was so helpless that I wished I could strangulate the lab people but what to do...here I was taking him against his wish and he obliged just with one sentence that test will help him in knowing now what all he can eat...I hit myself inwards as I mumbled to myself..or what he can't eat...When usually kids of his age don't want to look at chapati n sabji ,all he wants is simple chapati everyday and I can't give him that also because of his food allergies.I am just keeping my fingers crossed that at least his wheat and tomato allergy goes away so that he can eat normal meals at least.
we reached there and he cooperated till the time he got that painful prick...He was crying his heart out and so was me...It always happens and the hospital staff knows it so well that they might be ready with tissues every time provided I allow them to console both of us.But, no, its a very private emotion for both of us.We just wipe each others tears ..then I have a coffee and he has a tub of popcorn and all pain is forgotten soon.Then we went to badi mummy's place.She is my masi as well as tai.so I am very close to her.She is 73 and she has recurrent episodes of amnesia.But she loves me so much that she never fails to recognize me and kabir.Her family envies us too but who cares I go there to meet her.Anyway, as it happened that she was having her afternon siesta...and her care taker didnt tell her tat I had come.but she must have felt my presence as she called out to me in her sleep and my, my was she happy to see me!!!....she was ecstatic..and we spent some good one hour with her..
Then we went to meet a friend.She was sad and the reason she was sad was personal so cant discuss it here but I did go back to the same time 8 years ago when I had faced the same situation and it had nearly destroyed me.I really wished of only I could take away her pain .She is a fighter she will survive it all but why God has to give pain to people who don't even hurt anyone..I kept thinking all the way back home.After reaching back we attended the last day's aarti and offered prayers and I made last announcement for sunday's autism awareness session.Few people did respond to registration and I decided against my plan that I will do the session even if just 5 people turned up..So the count down begins now...for sunday.
Then it was time for result declaration for drawing competition.I was nervous...some how knowing that this time kabir didn't have much chance as I glanced at prize winning entries....But at heart I was angry how can society group kids from 5 to ten years in the same group?Wasn't it unfair..a 6 year old child competing against 6 ten year old children .Anyhow I was relieved to notice that kabir wasn't upset or even affected. He just checked on all drawings,it was 8.30 pm already, so he just said that he wanted to go home and sleep.I was relieved that he didn't realize that he had not won...he just wanted to sleep.I was also very tired.It had been a long long day for both of us.while kabir relaxed in front of t.v I cooked,checked my mail n chatted with a good friend.It was all sufficient to relax me.Kabir is sleeping and I am also going to draw the curtains now.Gudnite.
