Choosing to be a homemaker was my decision and in a way i have never regretted it.I am enjoying every moment of it,being at home,watching kabir grow,watching his antics,being there to offer my help when he falls n sharing his joy when he achieves something but somewhere when he is getting monotonous in his world of games,of animalworld and cartoons ,I m feeling ignored.I am not used to being ignored or being sidelined.from the day I decided to be an earning member for my family before marriage,then taking teaching as a profession....a profession where u get smothered with love,respect and affection....I was pretty good at my work in my school where I taught and so I got love,admiration in plenty and I m still getting it from my ex students...after getting so much, when I m feeling lonely,having no one to talk to at home,when i m free,it gets on nerves.
Is my life getting monotonous.?Am I getting tired of being at home?Is it the itch of getting back to work.?But I don't want to get back to usual teaching work then wat next?I m questioning myself a lot these days.Then above all,i dont want to compromise kabir's wellbeing at all.I dont want his growth and development to be compromised in lieu of my ambitions....I don't want my five years of hard work to go down the drain.perhaps my mental mindset will improve once adi is back..I have no complaints being a home maker but probably i need to find ways of being more productive wid my free time.Well,so it is a call to the creative Nalini to let her creativitity find ways to fight against this monotony which is finding ways into her mind and be her usual chirpy self.
